Ive been posting on this blog for quite a while now and am starting to release some stuff on my research and personal yogic experience on the DTP or devotional transformative practice and after doing some contemplation on my own life as a type of psycho-analytic JNANA practice I thought I would write it all down for myself and to share with others who are interested in this blog and maybe also my youtube videos (MukundaDas), so they can have an idea of who I am and how I have come to this point of doing spiritual service to others as part of my KARMA module.
I was born in Takaka, a small toen at the top of the south island of New Zealand, this town is quite well known for its alternative culture and I personally consider it quite a spiritual place. My family, which consisted of my Mum and Dad and brother Joel moved from Takaka to Golden bay, a small town near Christchurch and then down to Otago where I did my schooling. This town was called Waitahuna and was a very small country town with a larger town nearby called Lawrence. The earliest type of spiritual experiences i can remember was asking my mum and dad whether God was a man or woman around about three or four years old, and I remember going to Church where they all sung 'Emanuel' and wondering why they were all saying my name, I think I may have even gone into a state during this experience. I went to Waitanhuna school and enjoyed it a bit but got in trouble quite alot, one of the incidents was when I wrote a fake newspaper article about vampires attacking the inhabitants of Waitahuna and my teacher threw the art work in the bin. I also remember being into comedians which I took to the primary school for the other classmates to listen to while they did their work. I was mainly into just playing outside with my brother and we used to make lots of games together and go on adventures in the country. Later I went to the area school in Lawrence where a started more involved schooling. Most of my development at this state would be around the sensory level and going up to the bodily level (archaic - magic - mythic). Later on at home my brother and I got into doing computer programming on our commodore 64 at home and used to make games, I would read the books on computer programming and learnt alot about the BASIC programming language but gave up my personal studies in this when I got to MECHANICAL language. I made one game that was two fighters that would attack each other based on random calculations and you could go against someone else on who you thought would win, I also used to make small animations of a cartoon character I had made called beople. I liked drawing alot and was often doing cartoon and stuff with my friends in school. Around about the time I was doing high-school science I started really hitting the rational stage of development and was enjoying making sense of the world through the lense of science. Later in my studies at school I did physics and maths and was getting high grades up to 98% in the exams. I took up skateboarding and basketball and playing drums in my late teens and started hitting the green stage of development my the end of my high school schooling and was even attempting to design alternative green-based energy systems based on wind tunnels and applied physics. Around this time was the september 11th attcks and around this time my father passed away from a brain tumour. This really marked a spiritual turning in my life. I was also doing alot of shadow therapy stuff in my own personal books and starting to make progress in the shadow line. I then moved up to the North island with my mum to Hamilton and by this time I was quite a good drummer and started playing in bands. My first spiritual attempts at this point was astral traveling which I had some success in and also some meditation experiences after reading Alan Watts the way of Zen. I really mostly was living in the green stage for the next few years and had some girlfriends and relationship stuff, also I read a good book called the awakened mind about brain states and meditation and started doing some meditation every now and then. Around about 21 I took acid for the first time at a dance party down in Takaka and had my first spiritual emergence experience even though I didnt really know what it was, I also started reading Ken Wilber at that point and moved into the integral stage of development. I moved house into the hippy flat mem drive and that is when I first got into the writings of Emanuel Swedenborg and Hare Krishna philosophy - my FACE line was pretty much fully developed at this point and I was up to a personal conception of God. I was still playing in bands and starting to do quite big gigs at festivals and stuff. Me and my firends started going to the Hare Krishna meetings in our local area and I took a real interest in this, subsequently getting the beads and starting to chant the maha mantra. I had many more spiritual emergence experiences over the next few years and did tertiary study in music at WINTEC. After my studies my meditative states were getting quite deep and I met a Guru named Gaurahari who was teaching ecstatic bhakti yoga and around this time I started getting the ecstatic symptoms of divine love, I also went through the first two dark nights of the soul. Also I had then progressed to the post-integral stage of development and was reading Bhaktivinode Thakur. After many experiences of separtion pains I eventually met the Supreme Personality of Godhead Krishna and Radha and have been in direct contact with them through contact with my spiritual senses and talking meditation so that we can have conversations with one another. Since then i have been hanging out with God, mostly as Radha in the conjugal rasa (girlfriend and boyfriend). It was 1 year and eight months ago now that my third and final dark night kicked and this has been one of the hardest experiences I have been through. After working developing post-integral theory in a devotional context I moved to the para-mind stage of development and since then my philosophy has become contradictory in nature. Ive mostly read Bhagavad Gita over the years and dipping into pastimes, now I am doing Srimad Bhagavatam. Through the darkness and pain of the dark nights I get glimpses of Supreme bliss - the prema state, A vibrant state of pure love that feels like pure happiness is erupting at every moment. Now I am pretty much practicing the DTP that I have developed - an update of the integral life practice full-time when I am feeling ok and am really looking forwards to the end of the dark night. My spiritual emergence experiences seem to have come to some kind of conclusion and now I am really feeling on top of things and able to do spiritual service to others. I talk to my mum and brother regularly, I live with my brother in the flat and my mum is accross town and we have many spiritual discussions together as well as what talks I have with other spiritual practitioners over the internet.
Thanks for reading and letting me get this down, much love.
All Glories to Guru and Gauranga.
-Mukunda Das (Emanuel Comer)
